Mmm….Mmm Good!
Sunday, February 5, 2012 at 7:33PM 
Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about how good God has been to me…especially when I look at my precious children. It still amazes me that I have the huge honor (and responsibility!) of being their mother. I still remember wondering if I would ever be a Mom…the months after my first miscarriage were so difficult, I thought I would never recover. I had a few friends who had miscarried two, three times and I remember thinking to myself that I could never get over having another miscarriage. The one I had almost killed me – not physically. Physically, there was nothing wrong with me that surgery couldn’t correct, but mentally, emotionally…spiritually, I was pretty much out of it.
In November 2010, I found out I was pregnant again and I was sooo excited. The baby would have been due in July 2011 and I was already planning combined birthday parties with him/her and Zara. Their birthdays would have been like a week apart and it just seemed so perfect. Six weeks into the pregnancy, I remember commenting to my sister that I didn’t really feel pregnant. I’ve never had morning sickness per se, but I always feel extreme nausea – but it was absent that time. She told me it was probably nothing…every pregnancy is different and all that. So, I let it go. But somewhere in my heart, I just had a weird feeling. My weird feeling panned out and I miscarried in my 7th week. Oh! Not again…why me? Why me again, Lord? You know, the same questions came back…if God knew I would miscarry, why did He allow me to get pregnant in the first place? It just didn’t make sense to me. I was traumatized and heartbroken again. But God did not leave me without hope - I could look at my precious daughter and see what God had done. I knew that if He wanted to, He would do it again…and He did. I miscarried on Dec 16 2010 and on Dec 25 2011, we dedicated our precious son – our promise kept. He is now almost 4 months old and every time I look at him, my heart exclaims “God loves me so much!” I don’t know about you :)
David said ‘O taste and see that the Lord is good’. I have tasted and seen…yes, yes, yes! God IS good!
Onyih Odunze
Reader Comments (2)
Amazing God! How precious are His thoughts toward you...thanks so much for sharing! Beautiful post.
Thanks Ifeyinwa :)